Saturday, May 15, 2004

An anxiety dream?

I dreamed I was back at work. I was working in the Livonia store tho. I had alot to do. I continued working for what seemed to be quite awhile. Then a coworker, Scott, came up to me & said they were discussing what they were going to get for lunch, & wondered if I wanted "in". I looked at my watch, & it was only 10:30 in the morning. I told him lunch wasn't for another couple hours. He said he knew it, but they had to decide in case it got busy later, & he would just leave as soon as he could & get it. Then he told me that actually one of the bosses was supposed to show later, but they were thinking of getting lunch from a Coney Island, but that they were not actually allowed to go there for lunch anymore. I told him I'd have to think about it b/c I didn't have much money. Suddenly, it was later & everyone else had gotten lunch already. I thought they hadn't bothered to remember me, but they said that I had told them earlier that I didn't have much money & couldn't afford where they were going. I couldn't remember that, but it was true. I kept working & I felt I had so much to do, I'd never get done. So I decided I'd work thru my lunch break. I'd talk to Irene every so often while I worked, but I still felt overwhelmed. Then I thought it was going on the end of the work day, & I noticed I was polishing some silver(plated) things, & wondering why I was spending time on that when there were more important things to do. Then I took a good look around & realized I'd gotten everything else done, there was still several hours left, & I was just keeping busy til the end of the day. So I walked over to a nearby gas station, except all I got was a bottle of Diet Coke & something I don't remember now. As I left, I realized it wasn't much, but I didn't bother getting anything else. Then I went back to polishing silver. I decided the dream had become boring so I woke myself up.

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

Had a strange dream last night...

I was doing laundry. I had everything clean in a laundry basket. My cat jumped in it. She'd been trying to bite me, I don't know why. She just sat in the basket. I thought about taking a swat at her. I lover her, but she was turning mean. I finally swatted at her. She literally fell apart. Her paws were still in the basket, but her body flew into another direction & she was still alive. I felt bad. I told her, I didn't want to do it, but I was angry b/c she kept biting me. Then I glued her body back onto her paws. She had magic powers & could turn into a human. After she was glued back together, I picked her up & got onto a bus. We rode for just a few minutes. The bus stopped, & she turned into a human. We were standing on the steps of the bus & she was looking at someone in the distance who was in some kind of trouble. She got off the bus, but had trouble walking b/c I hadn't glued her back together just right, so her feet kind of swiveled at the ankles. I felt really horrible. I thought she'd put a curse on me or something, but she said she wasn't mad at me, but I had to help people who were in trouble. I knew I had no time for something like that, but I felt I had to do whatever was needed of me.

I can't remember the rest just now.